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From GitHub to Grass - Thoughts on Windsurf, Davidoff and Potential


Recently I created my first GitHub repo. During those precious moments of flow, I felt like a teenage programmer - a prolific creator back in college. Sometime during my stint in Isha IT, I had this thought that creativity, the act of creation and the what we call creation itself can have multiple forms. That it need not all be direct, physical, visceral - it can be of higher order - one can "create" teams, products, culture. Then last few weeks, I got the experience of being the direct creator - without those pesky layers of management and indirection. It was something practical too. It was something that I could use - It allows the user to upload NSDL statements and allow you to create portfolio trendlines.

This excites me - enough to believe that I will be able to complete my planned tenure at Salesforce. More than anything (more than the Salary at least), this learning potential excites me - I notice that this excitement about learning stems from two very different things:

  • One that is based on pure potential accumulation.
  • One that is much more purer - based on pure curiosity.

Potential Accumulation - I think this is a wonderful concept. This is happening on multiple levels - Modern Society allows us to buy future freedom based on excess livelihood - what this basically means is - everyday office work means that we work (sell our present time), so that we have freedom at some point in future to not show up for work but still afford society's conveniences (buy future time). This for me represents the basic level of potential accumulation. The next level of potential accumulation is about investing/curating in one's capabilities, skills (especially in the new paradigm shifts (created by AI)). Absorb as much of the modern productivity memes, value chains so that as an individual, one can nudge the world in small and tiny ways. Just writing this down, makes it all feel pointless and stupid. But this is the game that I am playing.

I recently bought a new coffee brand. It looks all black and cool. And Evil. - It's called Davidoff. It has a bitter sting. This is the coffee that I had today morning. I put the chair on our modest lawn - I kicked off my sandals and felt my feet on the grass. I let the sunshine dazzle my face. I let the caffeine spread over myself as I listened to the birds.

I tell myself "Screw this Accumulation - Screw the potential - Screw the future". This moment is everything.


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